Thursday, November 10, 2011

I love this little guy. Sometimes, I imagine that this is what the voice of Ana would look like, personified. :)


Take care, my beauties. Do whatever you have to do to feel well. :)

38 comments:

Anonymous said...

when im reading your words i can feel your pain dying to be thin. and i completely agree, the media puts an impossible standar on us as women. and it has to stop. i know you will do what you need to do and thats perfect, because its what you need...but i just wanted to say that it is possible to love your body for all its womanly natural imperfections, trust me. there is hope. ive know where you are at, and it can it better. theres hope.

and lastly, from your intellectually profound words, you sound beautiful to me. inside and out.

Anonymous said...

I feel like I need to print this out and put it in my wallet.

kiyuu said...

When I saw this post, literally jumped up and down... (And then frowned a bit, since ED is harsh)You're blogging again! What happened for a year, if you don't mind me asking?

(and the picture=cute/ACCURATE)

Barbie said...

this blog has given me strength for the best part of a year now. i admire you so much for being brave enough to juggle your devotion to your job with your anorexia. its the story of my life, and to see you doing the same, and having so much STRENGTH even in times of trouble means so much.

do keep writing. you are such an inspiration to me.

I LOVE YOU <3 x x x x

rose said...

I'm so glad you're back! Please don't go again. <3

Lucy's Shadow said...

you are back!!!
I'm so glad!
lots of love

Anonymous said...

Hi Ana,
Please don't be so sporadic in your posting!! Either shit or get off the pot! As the saying goes.

I do want you to be happy, healthy, and free. But only hearing from you every six months is really hard. So many people keep checking for your latest update and it just doesn't come. I hope you are happy in your recovery, cause NO ONE should be interviened and put into "recovery".

Anyway, I hope you are well. I hope you post even if you are in recovery and holding a steady healthy wieght. Let us know about how that is done also!!

Love ya.

Bonz89 said...

Hey I want to say first off you are such a strong beautiful woman and o applaud you for having the strength to go through recovery. I've read a few of your blogs and I know where you come from and why. People don't underhand the pain a person goes through each and every day crying because they can't share their anguish. You stay strong love stay alive and God bless.

Anonymous said...

First genuine smile of the day was because of this post. It's nice that you're dropping a post here & there whenever you can. Thanks so much doll. :)

Anonymous said...

soooo glad you are blogging again!

Emily said...

I'm so glad you're back. I think I've read your blog from beginning to most current at least ten times in the past three years. It's been such a great comfort as I've been struggling with bulimia for that long. Please keep writing. Stay strong. I know I don't know you..but I wish I could give you a hug! I love what you're doing here. <3

ALSO, do you have a tumblr?

Holly said...

lol id say thats about right :) or atleast i wish she looked so adorable :) ive seen mine and shes actually not nearly as pretty as id like... actually just terrifying and angry looking...

anasfallenangel said...

I just read your whole blog... Ohmigosh... I understand you =) I love your blog

M said...

Hello there :)

I love the little cartoon :D

I would just like to say that I am on a similar journey - I also keep a blog, but because I am worried others may pick up on my unhealthy habits (cause some days I am pushing it...and I swear in frustration a lot..lol), I'd rather just post under my initial. I know that sometimes it all is mad..and unhealthy - but the pressure and that once-in-a-while elated feeling when you lost more and SEE it..."keeps the water flowing".

Striving for perfection drives us to do this and keep on with it....and drives us mad.

Flirting with insanity?

I can not remember the last time I ate junk...I miss it lol. I even get hungry and all drool-y when I see an episode of Spongebob and watch him make Krabby patties :D

But...as writer and model...I can not let myself go. First impressions are everything...and that warps our minds.

I love your straightforward and honest way of writing - you are a strong woman, and therefore an inspiration to myself, as I love strong female characters - even though you may feel week & powerless some days...you are incredibly strong - and you (should) know it. :)

Thank you for unknowingly inspiring myself (and I believe others like me) in a good way just by the attitude you have!

"M", 21, South Africa

sheryl said...

o dear heart,

Im happy that you are alive and doing "well?"

I check you blog every so often and since you had such a large gap in time between entries over the summer I feared for you.

keep breathing, keep trying, chin up shoulders back.

Wishing you the best.

Anonymous said...

I love your blog. I just came across is yesterday while browsing for some thinspo. Your words help more than pictures believe it or not.
I think the idea that you want to be healthy is why I can't stop reading. I literally read from 2008- on. Please try and post more in the new year. I have you bookmarked in my computer and I look forward to your new posts!!

chan.

Nina said...

Please post more often. I miss your writings. :)

Anonymous said...

Hey, I found your blog and read it beginning to end! I loved it, you're a fantastic writer. I'd love to see some more posts from you, thanks for writing! You're great :)

Anonymous said...

I hope you are doing well, my dear. Praying for you, your health, your happiness, and your faith.

mianax said...

Ana, your so thinspirational to me, where have you gone? I've been reading all your post for months, I was in recovery for sometime and really tried but I couldn't do it any longer! I wasn't getting well for me do why bother, I'm back doing what I love and that's starving for perfection, I just wanted to say your words inspire me to keep going, keep it up!

Loads of love xxx

Mia said...

I miss you, Ana! Where'd you go? ):

mamabear4 said...

I love your honesty!!.do what you gotta do to feel good about yourself!! Its sad how ppl hate on you just for looking perfect :l ..good luck!!! Best wishes!!

Anonymous said...

this is sooo funny ana :)

Heather x said...

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Anonymous said...

I miss you come back please! I love reading everything you put here! I hope you are doing well
Ana Love,
Faithful follower

Anonymous said...

<3

Anonymous said...

I am doing everything I can to feel better. I hope you are too. Even if you have decided a different path, I wish you would continue blogging. I would love to hear from you. Whether it's for continued ana courage or a glimpse of possible recovery, you have been an inspiration to us all.

Rachel said...

HUGS

Anonymous said...

Hello, Ana, it's me, yet another Ana.
First off, here's a via internet hug.
Second, the last blog was dated November of 2011.
You can't answer this question if it's true, but I don't know how to word it any other way, except . . . are you still alive? I hope so.
Love ya!

Anonymous said...

Dear Ana,

When I came to your blog, I too was anorexic. I consumed an average of 300 calories a day and ran 20 miles per week. I was extremely underweight, and still felt fat and ugly.

But to be honest, you scared me.

As I read your posts, which I at first found inspiring and motivational, I began to realize how unhealthy and, yes, scary this lifestyle is.

I'm now in recovery, and although I still feel huge and want to stop eating every day, I won't! I will keep eating.

You haven't blogged in almost a year now, but I hope you read this. I hope you're doing okay.

And I'd like to thank you for saving my life.

Lots of love,
V

Anonymous said...

Please start posting again. I miss you. I need you.
Stay strong. Lots of love
-j

Anonymous said...

I stumbled across your blog and honestly I
Happy there are people like you. People who want to enlighten others that this disorder isn't always a choice. And don't promote thinspo because you wouldn't wish this on Anyone. I give you much credit for trying to go against the grain and work on getting better. And I love that you show people it's not just a simple fox and often feels impossible to handle because of the way the world is. I think it's great that you want to offer support to people and not tips on getting away with the disorder or hating on people because of who they are. Your blog is one of the few in between that people can go to just to know they're not alone. I truly think its amazing to see something other than the hate and thinspiration that is everywhere now. Keep your head up and keep fighting. Sincerely a new follower.

Anonymous said...

its been two years and i still check constantly to see if you've come back...

Anonymous said...

I hope you are ok, its almost been a year since you last wrote and I miss your words dearly.

Anonymous said...

I realize that you're probably never going to read this, but if you are, this is me begging you to update your blog. I, and many others, really are concerned about you. You don't need to add in any thinspo or whatever... As I'm sure you won't want to, if you have recovered in the time you've not posted. Just let us know you are alright. Please.
Please.

Honor Regzig said...

I still think about you. I hope you are still alive. The entertainment industry is cruel.
I hope you have a lot of happiness in your life :)

Anonymous said...

Totally agree !
Stay strong beautiful xoxox

Vanessa Toby said...

Hi, not sure if you still check this. I used to read your blog 4 years ago when I was suffering. I recovered. guess what? I'm at that place again. Looked this up to rekindle my old flame with thinspiration. I take it you've stopped writting.... I hope you are well Vx