Monday, June 15, 2009

Anorexic Identical Twins Get Intervention



"I'd rather starve than be fat," says 22-year-old Julia. But at 5-foot-7-inches and 95 lbs., the frail girl is compared by her Polish parents to survivors of Auschwitz.

Julia's story was featured on last week's episode of our favorite reality show, A&E's "Intervention." As a young teen, when Julia developed earlier than her identical twin, she began exercising to lose weight.

Her sister, Sonia (three minutes younger and 3 inches shorter) who'd clung to her newfound identity as "the thin twin" followed suit.

A Deadly Pact
The girls' sisterly competition soon gnarled into a shared eating disorder. When the show was shot, the twins consumed about 300 calories a day, counted each others' steps to guarantee they burned equal calories and weighed their food before eating it, counting each piece of rice.

They also had a pact that they'd always weigh within 3 lbs. of each other. "I don't feel like we're two people sometimes," says Sonia. "We're one person." (Click here to see the full episode.)
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I cried more at this show than I did at my own intervention. Thank God my Dad was not like theirs. My Dad is a little more gruff and forceful. He thinks he can demand sense from me, and he doesn't let his compassion show. And I know how to cower and look obedient, so there weren't a whole lot of tears, just acknowledged "submission."

Now that I've been (about a month ago) released from recovery, I am working on composing my thoughts for you guys to fill you in on just what happened and where I am now, emotionally and psychologically. I did a lot of lying in treatment, so I think my brain's a little screwed up, a) from being disordered, b) from lying so much. It's hard to tell which way is truly north. But stay tuned, I'll have it all figured out and posted for you soon.

Starve on.

51 comments:

Ophelia said...

Really, really looking forward to your next posts. I hope you're doing well and things are better, all my love
Ophelia x

AR said...

Every time I get out of the hospital I am always disoriented about what the current "story" is. I do a lot of lying in psych hospitals.

heather[hunger] said...

im glad you are back. i can't wait to read your composed thoughts :)
you keep me strong.

BriAngel94 said...

I understand completely. sometimes I lie so much that I've begun thinking f it as more than a lie, it's SURVIVAL plain and simply. Once you get those thoughts tgether,fill us all in okay? SS

R xx said...

please keep writing... i check your blog EVERY day..

Adoreana said...

I miss reading your posts, but I hope that you're doing well. I look forward to hearing more about how you are now... good luck. :)

Sar said...

Good luck with everything. Your blog is beautifully written, and a true inspiration to a fellow writer/blogger. I know what it's like to be a stranger to your mind, to doubt your thoughts, to lie so much you are not sure what is true and what is false; life is maddening. Peace girlie.

Jan said...

Welcome back. Do share how its like for the luckier bunch of us who haven't yet faced intervention.

How's it like having someone try to convince you they understand when you know they don't?

Anonymous said...

You are an inspiration and i pray for you.


take care

Anonymous said...

i'm so inspired by you...can't wait to read more about your journey.

Anonymous said...

It's been too long since your last post! There's a lot of us out here looking forward to hearing your recent thoughts and feelings, hope to hear from you again soon our dear Ana!

Thinspirational Constitution said...

I'm so glad you're finally back. We've missed you so much. No matter what know that your supporters on this blog are like your family. ( including me). We are here to support you and help you move on. No matter which path you choose to pursuit.
You're an inspiration to many! Keep your head up & follow your goals!!
Starve on sister!

Anonymous said...

Ana,
You're so beautiful. You give so much to us that I am at a loss to describe the feelings. I want the self control that you possess and I will have it, I will fly high. I will leve no tracks so as to defile the purity of the soil on which I walk. I am disordered but i am strong, I will stay strong and I will fly.

Anonymous said...

Where have you been? Please come back to us, we need you.

Anonymous said...

thanks christ, you are posting again!
I know, I barely know you as well as you don't know me.
And still... at times it feels as if I am closer to you than to any other person in this world. Thanks a lot for that!

Wish you the best for the future, whatever it will bring ♥

=^.~= V

Anonymous said...

I hope you manage to get your thoughts sorted out soon. I know what you mean about that.

Glad that you are back safe and well
x

Ana Doll said...

I am glad to hear of you again. You are one hell of a help for us and we are here for you. I have never had an intervention but I get the family scolding me for what they think is fussy eating. People don't understand what is going on i our minds and try to fix it. If they gave us a chance to talk they might get a whole different view. I started going to a psychiatrist because my aunt asked me too, not only did I lie, I am convinced the woman didn't care what happened with me as long as I came, payed and took the pills she ordered (which I stopped buying). That's why we need pro-ana, we need each other, and we are always here for you, I hope you are well, or as well as you can be and take care, you are strong.

Ana333 said...

Ana, I love you, cannot wait to hear from you, xoxoxoxox, Anna

Hannah <3 said...

I watched the episode, too, and couldn't help but stat crying when their father said on camera he'd rather kill himself and spend an eternity in hell with his daughters than let them go.
It honestly was the most moving episode from 'Intervention' that dealt with an eating disorder, because most times it leaves you greatly unsatisfied and wanting more.
Thank you so much for recommending the episode :) I can't wait to hear from you.

Sara K said...

heyy i just want to say that you're such an inspiration to me! i love how honest you are with everything.. and reading your posts is helping me so much.

just a quick question though: how come i can't find you on facebook? i tried searching but nobody turned up o_O

-Sara

Anonymous said...

i was so happy to see your new post! i wait impatiently for your next post. one might say i am starving for it! hahahahaha....sorry. i'm tired and punchy from planning kids birthday parties, doing gymnastics, and of course, not eating haha. you are beautiful. starve on and keep writing!

Savory Sweet said...

Thanks for the link...

I look forward to reading about what's been going on while you were away and how you are doing. Take your time :)

KatUK said...

I couldn't get the link for some reason but it is upsetting to watch someone else hurt - even though u know deep down that ur doing the same thing ?? Ive only lost 2 and a half pounds this week but least its still in the right direction - the saying is nothing tates as good as being thin feels !! and i totally believe that.

Thin Lizzy said...

Ana Regzig,
Where are you, are you OK? We really need to hear from you soon, please post so I know you are well. Stay strong.

missyking said...

you are my inspiration
you are my thinspo
you are my saint
keep blogging
stay strong! i believe in you!

Anonymous said...

Ana!
=D
I`ve missed you soooo much.
I`m glad you`re back.
No, actually I know you never left us.
<3
Well.
Good luck with everything and I bet we all hope to see you soon. c:

Anonymous said...

can't wait to know what happened! love your blog, its so addictive, stay strong =)

Anonymous said...

I can't wait to hear what you sort out :-)

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you're back. And okay.

farfaletka said...

hmmm why no one commented??
but i didnt want to talk about it..im just thkning how brave you have to be to admit,that youve got a. i would never want anyone to know that ive got it,and show my life,everyday problems,how to deal with family...
but that reminds me also how good was when i was16pounds "smaller" and i just said today to myself its enough,i want myself back and ive got8weeks...
i want to be again strong,happy,be able to wear what i want,without being embarassed...
youve got so much important posts here, which i believe will help me to achieve my goal ,mayby even sooner(i hope so so much!!)
ps sorry if i made some mistakes during writing...just moved to states...

Anonymous said...

Please come back to the blog. I miss your thoughts...

Kate said...

I totally watched this last week. Pretty interesting to see how much they depend and enable each other. Thanks for posting, hope you don't mind if I read your blog.

Anonymous said...

i cried watching, too. i'm glad you're back& good luck, and sry about what youve been going through =/

Cat said...

So you're still ana?

Just letting you know, you're a huge inspiration to me. Thanks.

Cat.

Anonymous said...

I know what you are going through. Do we want recovery or don't we? I am now at a 'healthy weight" and am crawling out of my skin. I was in treatment not long ago and I cannot stand my treatment team. I want to lose weight so bad. It is not a choice for me. I am starting a fast tomorrow and it will last for 12 days. I am not going to brake it for anything. I can't be like this. It is like 95 degrees out and I am in a baggy long sleeve shirt and baggy pants. I cannot let anyone see my body. I hope I can after I fast. I am hoping to lose 14 pounds. Starve on

Tianne said...

i just stumbled on your blog... i'm intrigued...

Empty said...

I follow your blog loyally, and love it. You are such an inspiration to me. Was it hard to start your blog and get people to view it? I recently started my own and although I'll never match yours, thanks so much for the inspiration. You are my original skeleton princess and I thank you so much.

xoxox

Kalikarain said...

they are not "identical" twins if they have different heights, even if they look a lot alike they are fraternal twins.

Stephanie said...

I couldn't watch that. I feel such a strong NEED to compete with others. You know that same voice in your head that told you you were bad for eating white bread instead of whole wheat, so now you have to run for 120 minutes. I had a terrible time in group therapy. I felt like I had to compete with every person there. It was torture. The thought of these 2 sisters having to live in competition every minute of the day, is agonizing to think about.

Just my boring thoughs.

I hope you are doing as well as you can be.

A said...

So glad to see you back. Really been struggling lately and your blog is a continued source of inspiration. Hope youre well and you sort everything out.
Much love x

I said...

Today is my first day reading your blog. I really enjoy it and have read into some later posts that really inspire me to fly and be thin and beautiful. I wish I had your amazing self-control, and I bet I could do it. But I live with my brother and parents, and it is hard to get anything by them. I am trying, and I will definitely return to your blog to see how you are doing, and to inspire me to keep pushing.

You rock.

blueglassbead said...

How amazing to have a twin to "help" you, and not judge you or make you eat. Someone to enthuse and conspire with about weight and food.

xthinforever said...

Wow, I really like your posts.
I hope things are going okay. <3
I will follow.

Sophie said...

I stumbled across your blog and yours is the reason I started mine :) You are very strong and I am inspired by you... I hope you keep blogging and I hope you find success-- in either recovery or ana. You are wonderful :)

Anonymous said...

Hey! I know both Julia and Sonia. Not very well, but I was at Remuda Life Program with them. Sonia's therapist, Laura Churchill was my therapist at RLP. They are both very amazing girls.

Anonymous said...

great working! I am starting tomorrow with a whole one-not-eating day! ate just to much this week... Any tips to avoid my parents seeing that i dont eat? (what do you say when you go to the dinner table)? Thank you all! LOVE YOU!<3

Anonymous said...

I know them, I was in treatment with them at Remuda. It was a very hard case because of the competition between the two. I think they are doing alright but still struggling. If one was standing, the other would go into a rage because she felt like the other was trying burn more calories. They had to do the exact same thing always, if Julia had to get a pencil, sonia would get up with her and go together and then sit back down.

Anonymous said...

I love reading your blog, i tried the salt water flush, and i feel so much better after taking it. Thanks so much!

Tiny said...

Thank you!!! I'll wait for your new posts. Keep writing.

Anonymous said...

I have been up and down with anorexia for years and it is nothing to joke about. Understanding where everyone is coming from here, I think I can tell you it is not fun battling with food 24/, but is it worth dying for? Consider those who care about you and think eating disorders are like drug addictions: easy to form, hard to get rid of. Think of all the people who care about you and want you to get better...

Anonymous said...

I have just started reading Ur blog<3 and I love it it has inspired me so very much...:)
Your amazing,&beautiful!!!
*Stay Strong*<3